Where Ever I Look, There I Am

She walks down the rocky path, along the side of the pond. She’s been there many times over the years. It’s what she does. That path has brought her to many moments in her life; moments of reflection, moments of hope, moments of despair. Regardless of the emotion, that rocky path is comforting. She knows it like the back of her hand. She’s learned its curve, the juts, the exposed roots, and of course, the rocks. They’ve been there forever. They’ve accompanied her on many journeys.

She rarely stops along the path. She rarely looks into the water. Often, it just doesn’t make sense. Onward, right? It’s what we do. It’s what we are supposed to do. Right? People don’t like to stop and look. People don’t like when others stop and look. It’s a lot of work. What might one find?

Today, she stops. Not on purpose. She just happens to stop to take it all in. She looks down. She looks into the water. She feels her breath catch. It’s quick and unexpected.

Down there, in that pond, is a young girl. She hasn’t seen her in ages. She looks again to make sure it’s who she thinks it is. She’s right. She’s standing right in front of her, wide-eyed and ready to take on the world. Her first instinct is to say…..wait.

Wait. Stay here, for this one moment and breathe. Don’t wish this moment away. You have no idea what’s in store. Breathe. And look around.

I know it feels hard right now. Guess what? It’s not. It really isn’t. Just stop. And breathe. This is nothing.

This path is part of your journey. You will find yourself back here time and time again. You will seek this path out over and over again. You will try to find new answers to old questions on this familiar route. And every time you return, another answer will appear. I promise you that.

Embrace every part of your journey, even the painful moments. You are strong enough to make it all worth it. You will find lessons in every loss. It’s what you do. It will feel unfair. It will feel exhausting. I get it. Because it is unfair and exhausting. But there are rewards along the way.

You will know love in a way few ever will. You will find it in the obscure, quiet, unassuming moments of your life. You probably won’t recognize it until its gone. But you will see grace. And you will keep looking. You will never settle for anything less.

It will be worth it. Just breathe.